Saturday, April 30, 2011

Study Leave: Day Four

Yesterday was the last day of workshops. Tomorrow I drive back to Illinois. I'm feeling somewhat energized about bringing back to my church all the things I took out of the seminars. The nice thing about doing this kind of forum in the spring time when tomorrow is the last day of Sunday school is that I now have the rest of the summer to pull together some kind of youth task force to talk about plans for the middle and high schoolers come fall. I also am excited about the new additions for my library!

Yesterday I only had one workshop and it was called, "Pracademia," led by Jason Santos. Jason was actually one of my preceptors when I was in seminary and the workshop was geared towards encouraging us as participants to do some soul searching within a faith group to find a sense of truth in that space between the academic and the practitioner. In other words, how do we maintain a student-and-pastor mentality instead of student or pastor. And he emphasized the hyphens, which really illustrated his point. This is something that actually really spoke to me yesterday since I've been living in this transition between being a seminary graduate and a new pastor. The faith group that Jason mentioned consists of a couple of people who are outside of the school and church but are part of a circle of trust, creating a safe space for exploration of how the Holy Spirit works in our individual lives.

It's about integration.

Jason encouraged us to face our monsters. He said, "Our monsters are not our enemies. Our monsters are our guides to the depths of our souls. They will lead us to our deepest fears, which is where we will also find wholeness." As pastors, we bring a certain degree of baggage into the pulpit. Some pastors bring more than others. For me -- and my congregation knows this -- my baggage coming into the new church was the fact that everything for me was so unbelievably new and everything last summer happened so quickly. There wasn't really time for me to really think about what being a seminary graduate meant, although in retrospect that might be a good thing. I entered ministry with a lot of homesickness, and maybe even a bit of resentment towards God for making following his directions mean that I had to move 900 miles away from everyone I knew. I've started a new life, though certain aspects of my old life are still an active part of my new existence. My task has been to find that new norm, that new space to integrate the new ordained Rebecca Weltmann with the previous versions of my self. As Jason pointed out, it's not about ceasing to be whoever I was before graduation and figuring out who the new me is, but about figuring out how the Spirit has led me and helped me to grow in addition to my identity before graduation. Who I am now is made possible only by who I was in seminary.

And to be honest, not much has changed. I've been slowly figuring out new norms. My long distance relationship has been challenging, but also rewarding. Skype makes the world a little bit smaller, which helps tremendously. My family has been so supportive and we stay in touch as reguarly as we can. I'm assimilating into my new environment by making friends and getting involved in social activities like going to work out at the gym and going out places with friends. So how have things been going? In reflection about where I started and where I am now with my congregation, things are going really well.

I'm feeling inspired to take back what I've learned in the seminars and bring them into my own ministry. This is still a part of that transitional space Jason talked about. What does it mean to integrate the material into my own church context? That will be my reflection time for the next couple of months as we look to revamp our Christian ed program.

One of Jason's closing thoughts was, "It's not about what we know as individuals; it's about what we know as a community." As we look towards the future and the ways we can grow as a community, I find myself excited and inspired to seek out the ways to put legs on these theories. The great thing about these seminars was that even though the focus was on how it relates to youth ministry, the materials are things that I can use in a myriad of ways all over my ministry. I can't wait to get back to Illinois and carry this momentum along with me.

Yours in the Peace of Christ,
Pastor Becki

Friday, April 29, 2011

Study Leave: Day Three

Yesterday was a busy day, filled with three workshops and one lecture by Eboo Patel who is the founder of Interfaith Youth Core. IFYC is an organization dedicated to focusing on how interfaith groups can work together for the common good of communities around the world. It was actually quite appropriate considering one of the workshops I attended yesterday had to deal with doing youth ministry in a religiously diverse world, led by IFYC worker Cassie Meyer.

This was probably my most thought-provoking workshop yesterday simply because I'm not sure how religiously diverse my church's town actually is. I couldn't tell you how much interaction with interfaith groups my youth actually encounter. My town in central Illinois is very small. As I've mentioned in other posts, we not only have a national day of prayer held downtown on the square, but the mayor encourages and supports (and places!) a large nativity scene on the downtown square for Christmas. I know there is an Islamic Center in the city over the river, but on our side of the river I'm not sure we're all that diverse. I tried to check the US Census for my town, not recalling at the time that the census is prohibited from asking questions about religion. I found the prohibition to be interesting. What would be the purpose for refraining from asking about such affiliation? The census wants to know every other little intimate detail about us, right down to our racial and economic status. We ought to be proud of our religious affiliations (or non-religious affiliations) and ready to record that as necessary. Instead, we have to share our economic status, no matter how shameful that feels sometimes.

So I've been thinking about how to get my youth involved in an interfaith dialogue. The Sunday school program at my church ends on May 1, but I'm thinking maybe with the 10th anniversary of 9-11 quickly approaching on the horizon, it might not be a bad idea to invite interfaith dialogue in our church communities. As I mentioned, the Islamic Center is right across the river, so I wonder how it would be received if I invited someone from that organization to come and do a service project with us in the interest of promoting interfaith relations.

I say do a service project because this was the suggestion in the seminar. The focus of the IFYC is to hone in on the common good for our communities. This can lead to conversation, but the foundation that the IFYC is interested in creating is an atmosphere for relationship. They work off three basic principles:

1) respect: respect for religious and non-religious identities
2) relationships: mutually inspiring relationships (you love me, I love you)
3) common action: common action for the common good.

What would this look like in our community? How do we bridge the social capital in a way that we can have interfaith relationships without being concerned about converting each other?

Someone in the seminar said this might be a great place to let the youth lead, and I think this is true. This generation is much more familiar with interfaith relations because the schools are so much more diverse than they were in the last generation or the generation before that. Immigration has opened up amazing pathways into interfaith dialogue, though sometimes we don't see it that way for a whole host of reasons. After attending the seminar, I feel encouraged to sit down with my youth and talk about their interaction with interfaith groups and see how relevant this kind of conversation would really be. I have a feeling my town might be more diverse than I think it is (especially given that I've only been their nine months).

The other two seminars I attended yesterday were "Beyond Bathrobes" -- looking at how to incorporate drama into creatively interpreting scripture or prayer in worship or youth group events -- and "Church Systems" -- looking at the various systems that go on in our churches. While I thought Church Systems was the most interesting, the seminar on youth ministry amongst religious diversity was the most thought-provoking.

I am truly enjoying my time at the seminar and I'm looking forward to my final day of workshops today.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Study Leave: Day Two

Yesterday I went to a workshop called, "Creativity and the Body of Christ." Essentially, the seminar looked at the importance of creating the worship space as a place that generates creation. The speaker, Matthew Schultz, asked the question, "Are our kids absorbing or engaging?"

He pointed out that from an early age, we (kids and adults included) are trained to absorb information. We teach them how to fill in bubbles on a scantron, but there's little proof that scantrons help prepare people for problem solving. Even in church, there comes a point where if the worship space is not fostering creativity, the worship platform is just another platform to have people absorb information. I remember reading at one point (and I can't remember where for the life of me) that worship ought not to be about how we change worship but how worship changes us. What are the ways in your own worship life that you feel inspired to be creative?

As a pastor, I hear people say, "Oh I'm not that creative" or "I'm not creative at all." The speaker yesterday pointed out that as Christians, we have a long history of creative people in scripture going before us from God creating the world to charging the human race with being creative and naming the animals to Job and David who were poets and song-writers, to Jesus who spoke in parables and encouraged his disciples to go out into the world as story tellers, and so there is a long history of creativity being an intergal part of the human experience. I think everyone has the capacity to be creative in some way if they give themselves permission to be.

Mr. Schultz used a great line yesterday. He said, speaking about creativity in the church, "It's not a wall to smash but a garden to water." We shouldn't be looking at how we can create our worship spaces to foster creativity as a wall we have to knock down between the ones who say "need" traditional liturgy every Sunday and those who want a more "contemporary" worship style. Is there a way within our congregations to marry the two without going to a second service?

In the church where I'm working, we're looking at the possibility of moving to a second service that will most likely take place Saturday nights. The hope is that an evening service will draw open the pathways for more young families with kids to feel welcomed into the church. I've been around long enough to know that for most people, because of sports and other commitments, church has lost its place as high priority in many people's lives. In the race between kid's sports, golf, and family events, church will almost always come second. I don't say that to sound negative, I say that because I know it from experience to be true. It is especially true in the spring and summer months when the weather is finally juuuust right. The comment I get about moving to having a second service is that people want us all to be worshipping in one space at one time because that's how we get to know each other. People want one service because it means the church will not grow beyond what they consider to be a "comfortable capacity."

We're not looking to become a megachurch. We're not looking to have so many members that we're unable to minister to them all and we're not looking to break any records. My session has ideally, they would just like numbers to be up where they were several years ago. I think we can do it, but we need to think outside the box about getting the younger families -- especially families with kids and youth -- involved. How can we create that spirit of creativity to encourage others to cultivate their own spirit of creativity?

It's about conversation. What are people hungry for at church and how can we invite them to make the presence known? Not "how can we count them when they sign the friendship pads" and not "how can we get them all to pay their per capita" but how can we invite them to make their presence known so they know they have a voice in the life of the church? We do this through conversation. I'm really big on communication and I believe that the majority of negative drama happens in the church as a direct result of a lack of communication. I want to know in what ways the people of my congregation are being fed and in what ways they are left with a bit of hunger.

What are the ways that our worship spaces already invites the spirit of creativity? What things can we try to increase the ways we invite a spirit of creativity? We are called to proclaim the Word in an ever-changing world. We should create an atmosphere of creativity because we are called to be creators in ways we might not even expect. As beings created in the image of God, we are created in the image with the capacity for creativty. How can we break the spell over those who do not believe they are creative? I think this would be a great conversation in whatever church we attend.

Yours in Christ,
Pastor Becki

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Study Leave: Day One

I arrived home in New Jersey late Monday night for a conference starting yesterday at Princeton Theological Seminary (my seminary) entited: "Princeton Forum on Youth Ministry." I am spending the week attending workshops geared towards exploring various ways to think outside the box with youth and young adults. As a way for me to process the information from each day, I'd like to do a little more blogging than I usually do.

Yesterday was Day One. It consisted of me arriving at the seminary at about 11 and having a little bit of time to visit with people that are still there from when I was there. They are graduating this year, but after I stopped by the conference registration table, I was able to enjoy some time in the school cafeteria with some old friends. It is so wonderful to be back in New Jersey for the week!

At opening worship, an amazing speaker named Shauna Hannan spoke from Luke 17:11-19, the story of ten made clean by Jesus with only one returning to thank Him for it. Jesus points out when the one returns, "Were not ten made clean?" Shauna then commented, "We might rephrase it, 'Were not 20 confirmed? Were not 12 baptized?'" We laughed but only because we know it's the truth. Too many youth are confirmed and then we never see them again in the church. It is not just small churches that wrestle with how to retain youth in the church. Large churches face that question as well. Part of what I'm hoping to get out of this week is insight on how to provide youth-friendly options both in worship and in youth group time that get youth excited to come to church and spend time with their church family. As someone who always came to church without question and who almost always had perfect attendance in youth group and Sunday school, it's a little harder for me to get my head around why people don't. Part of it I think has to do with upbringing. I don't think it's a "sign of the times" because this is no different for this generation than it was for the last or the one before that.

The lecture I heard last night gave some insight into what has happened between the time when church was just a given and church now being an "optional" activity, second always to sporting events, family gatherings, and sunny days on the golf course. Dr. Richard Osmer, a professor at the seminary in the Christian education and practical theology departments, spoke for about an hour on "Evangelism and the Mission of the Church in an Age of Diversity." He talked about how we can reclaim the spirit of evagelism as a way to help "wake up" the church. Evangelism, he said, is not just for non-Christians, although that's how we often think about it. I've heard it said before and Dr. Osmer kind of reiterated this: evangelism should be about conversation; not strictly about conversion.

The workshop I attended yesterday afternoon was pretty awesome. It was led by a writer named Enuma Okoro and the title of the workshop was, "Writing as Faithful Witness and Building Blocks." We did a writing exercise, shared our work, and talked about how reading and writing has an impact on our spiritual lives. I've never really thought of reading something other than scripture as a spiritual exercise, so that was an interesting highlight of the seminar. I also very much enjoyed the writing exercise and at some point I might type out what I wrote and post it on the blog.

It felt so good to see so many familar faces and catch up with people. I do miss seminary. I miss sitting in the classroom with people. I do not, however, miss exams and writing papers. I do enjoy the time I have now to read things at a more leisurely pace rather than trying to read everything to cram it all in on a deadline.

So that was Day One. Looking forward to reporting back on Day Two : )

Yours in Christ,
Pastor Becki

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Amazed by Christ

If you miss Maundy Thursday and Good Friday services, you miss a crucial part of the Easter story. As we roll into Holy Week tomorrow and the final days of Lent, I encourage you to go to the Maundy Thursday and Good Friday services that you have available to you so that you can participate in the parts of the story that you won't hear in Sunday worship. The Passion Story is incredible and yes the triumphant entry (triumphant? I question if this is the appropriate description.) into Jerusalem and the actual story of the stone rolling away are important. But I would argue that what happens in the upper room, what happens in the Garden of Gethsemane, what happens before the Sanhedrin, and what happens before Pilate are equally as important.
That's my soap-box moment.
I've been reading the Passion story in the Gospels this week and watching Jesus Christ Superstar and Godspell ad nauseum (as I do every Easter) and as I was reading through Matthew, one phrase really stuck with me. "Pilate was amazed."
Pilate has never met Jesus Christ, but I'm certain he had heard of him. King Herod also heard of Jesus Christ and demands miracles. Pilate doesn't demand miracles. What he does require is a reason to condemn Jesus of Nazareth. Pilate, prefect from Rome, is charged with deciding what to do with this Jesus of Nazareth. Does he simply go along with the schemes of the religious leaders? Does he release Jesus on the grounds that there's nothing really concrete to suggest that Jesus really is trying to overthrow the Roman government?
As an interesting side note, even Pilate's wife tries to weigh in on his decision. In the book of Matthew, Pilate's wife goes to him and asks him not to have anything to do with "the innocent man" since he was giving her nightmares. Ultimately Pilate does listen to his wife and he "washes his hands" of the whole thing, leaving it up to the responsibility of the religious leaders to condemn him to death.
But back to this phrase "Pilate was amazed." That stuck with me this week while I read through Matthew. Throughout the gospel, people are amazed by what Jesus does and says. The disciples are amazed when Jesus calms a storm in Matthew 8. The crowds are amazed in Matthew 9 when Jesus exorcises a demon and they are amazed in Matthew 13 when Jesus speaks in the temple with such authority. Pilate is amazed by Jesus when Jesus stays so calm and does very little to plead his case away from the inevitability of death. Jesus answers none of the charges against him in Matthew 27 and "the governor was greatly amazed."
When was the last time you were amazed by Jesus Christ?
So much of this Easter season is about routine. We expect certain things about this season to be the same. Our church and family traditions are largely the same every year, and there is something to be said for sameness. I know I get uncomfortable when you mess with my family traditions (and since my grandmother died in 2008 and especially since I moved in August, there's not a single family tradition for me that hasn't been changed, so I have to admit on a sidenote I'm extremely glad my family will be coming to Illinois on Easter Sunday because I don't think I could emotionally deal with them not being here that day). We come to expect certain things about Easter when truth be told, there's not a single thing about the Easter story that was expected.
Which on one level is odd. Jesus tells the disciples he will be crucified and raise from the dead in three days, yet they arrive at the tomb still expecting the body to be lying there waiting for the proper burial annointing. They expect certain things and what they find surpasses their expectations. He is risen! He is risen indeed!
So don't expect the expected. Think about what Easter means to you and what part of Easter is, for you, unexpected. It's good to be amazed. It's good to allow yourself that space to be amazed. During this Holy Week, let yourself be amazed by what's happening. This Easter, as you celebrate the event that separates Christianity from our Jewish heritage, be amazed by Christ. There's a child-like wonder in the concept of being amazed.
You have a similar choice to make: What do you do with Jesus of Nazareth? Do you accept Him as a part of your routine or do you open yourself up to be amazed by Him in whom all things are held together?
Think about it this way: If Pilate -- a Roman governor, not a pacifist, and by no means someone who believed that Jesus was the Son of God -- could be amazed by Jesus, how much more should we be amazed by all the awesome things Jesus did and continues to do?

Here's hoping you find the amazement of Christ in unexpected places and may you have a very blessed Easter,
Pastor Becki

Sunday, April 10, 2011

When Size Doesn't Matter

I was visiting a homebound member of my church this past week and we got into talking about death and dying. She is a woman of devout faith, but she's reached a point in her battle with cancer where she's not really sure why God is making her hang on. As we were talking, I happened to notice the poinsettia in her living room.

The date is April 7 and there is still a poinsettia sitting in her living room.

Now, mind you, this poinsettia is not looking even the least bit droopy. I looked at it for a moment, surprised that not a single red leaf looked like it was ready to fall to its death in the plate under the foil-wrapped planter. So I asked her about it.

"Most people don't really know how to care for poinsettias," she said. "The most common mistake most people make with poinsettias is that they over-water them. I wait until the soil is bone-dry and then I give it just a little water and that's all it needs."

I thought about that poinsettia, and I've been thinking about that poinsettia since that visit and its just amazing to me how something so simple can take such good care of a part of God's creation.

Often times we think it's the complicated things that make the most sense. Think about it. When we are looking for a miracle, we're looking for fireworks and brimstone. We're looking for magic wands and fairy dust. The stuff that I find in the Bible informs me that God doesn't do much work in loud places. When Elijah is hiding in the damp caves from an angry king and queen, scripture tells us there was a great wind, and then an earth quake, and then a fire, but the Lord wasn't in any of these things. In I Kings 19:12, scripture reads, "And after the fire came a genlte whisper. When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave." The Lord was in that gentle whisper. In 2 Kings when Naaman, a commander in the army of Aram, goes to Elisha to be cure of his leprosy, he's actually offended when Elisha's messengers tell him that to cure his skin problem he has to wash in the Jordan River seven times. "You could have just called on the name of yorur God," Naaman protests, "and I would have been healed." But that's not what God's instructions were. So Namman finally does what he's told and his skin problem clears up. Incredible. In the New Testament, a woman fights her way through a crowd and touches Jesus' cloak. She fesses up to her actions when Jesus calls out to the crowd to find out who touched him, and she tells him she knew if she could only touch his cloak, she could be cured of her health problems.

This is how God works: in the stillness and in the quiet. Miracles are not big and flashy. They are not accompanied by fanfare or fireworks, although the result of miracles often makes us wish we could follow up the miracle with those things. Miracles are blessings from God that often come from unexpected places with an unexpected amount of stillness. We don't expect the savior of the world to come in the form of a baby in the night and we certainly don't expect him to then allow himself to die on the cross. But that's what happens. Our faith story is rooted in the fact that both of these things happen, actually. It's pretty incredible to me how as almighty as God is, that's how quietly most of God's miracles happen.

The fact that the poinsettia was still thriving was astonishing to me. I've never seen one this late in April still look like it looked Christmas Eve. And yet there it was, looking as fresh and as well-kempt as ever. All she did, this member of my church said, was check the soil and when it was bone dry, she would give it just a little bit of water. Nothing else. No fanfare, no fireworks. Just a little water on bone-dry soil. If we stopped always looking for God in the big things and started to take time to notice how present and incredible God is in the simple, small things, we might find that God really is doing some incredible and amazing things in our lives. My hope and prayer for you today is that God helps you to take a little time out of your life to find God in the small, simple things. See God in the mundane. Hear God in the silence. Feel God in the stillness. Know that the Spirit of God dwells within you and is always working in you and through you.

Yours in Christ,
Pastor Becki

Friday, April 1, 2011

Living in Community

Throughout the season of Lent, my church is working through a study on the beatitudes. Our focus is on the basics of the Matthean version: what do they mean inherently and what do they mean for our lives? The beatitudes are the prologue to the Sermon on the Mount and they set the stage for what is to come: how do we live as a Christian community?
I’ve been reflecting on this concept a lot lately. What does it mean for us to live as a Christian community? What does it mean to live as a community in general? The beatitudes give us a lot to think about it in terms of what it takes to be blessed: be poor in spirit, allow yourself to mourn, do what needs to be done even if it means being persecuted and judged for it. Better to be judged here on earth than by our heavenly father. Matthew’s audience is made up of a group of baby Christians: people who are a newly formed Christian community. This is an audience thirsty for stories that are foundational to their faith that tell them how to live and act within their community in relationship to the outside world. When we look at the beatitudes in that light, we can see the little personality traits that Matthew hopes we as Christians exhibit.
Living in community is tough. Some of us thrive on being around people; we feed off of each other’s energy. Some of us can only take being around other people for so long before our anxiety levels rise up to critical mass.
In his book Life Together, Dietrich Bonhoeffer (Christian writer and theologian murdered in the Holocaust) wrote, “Christianity means community through Jesus Christ and in Jesus Christ. No Christian community is more or less than this” (pg. 21). He adds later that those who are afraid of being alone should beware community and those who can’t stand community should beware of being alone. Living the Christian life is about living in balance. We act in community and support one another by being a part of the community because God created us to be communal creatures. God creates the animals and Eve so that Adam won’t be alone because while God calls everything in His creation good, the one not-good thing is that man should be alone. We were not created to be alone, and yet Bonhoeffer warns that we should not seek out community just because we can’t handle being alone. There is a time and place for solitude. As an introvert, I enjoy my solitude but I know myself well enough to know that eventually I have to break out of the solitude to seek out community. This is living life in balance. Sometimes I do it better than other times, but I’m usually pretty good about getting myself to a community when I feel the need for a communal support. Sometimes even going to the gym is getting that “people fix.”
I digress.
This communal nature is why we worship corporately in the Presbyterian Church. I know there will come a Sunday where it is just so beautiful outside that you can’t help but go to the golf course or the beach. You might encounter God in those places, though I’m forced to wonder if you’re really calling on God’s name or not when you say His name on the golf course. But nothing compares to the way we encounter Christ when we worship together and stand together as a community through and in Jesus Christ. Community is so important. It is how we allow each other to support each other. It is only through community that we can be a blessing to others and also balance that with giving each other space to be a blessing for us as well. As a community, we hold each other accountable. We need to be blessed as much as we need to be a blessing.
How are you living in community? How are you supporting your faith community? Are there ways that your community of faith can encourage you in your walk with Christ? I encourage you and lift you up in prayer as a part of my community of faith, whether I know you by name or not. May you do the same for your faith community and for me.
Yours in Christ,
Pastor Becki